He called me last night.
He spent a good six hours loving his freedom, telling everyone that would listen that he was never going back, and then magically, over a two-hour period he changed his mind.
It leaves me skeptical.
I've told him that it's like we're starting over, that it's like he'll have to do a little bit of winning me back. I told him to take a night and tell me today if he's up for that. I'm pretty nervous about it. I know he just wants everything to go back to normal, and I know that one of his weakest points when it comes to being in a relationship is the ability to communicate.
When we were talking last night, he had no complaints about me at all, which also bothered me. He's been telling everyone he meets that I get mad at him about every little thing, that I'm crazy, and that he loved me but he just didn't like me anymore, and he didn't have anything to bring up to me, so...
I guess we'll just see. I'm in limbo for the next few hours, until he wakes up and tells me if he's really willing to commit. If he isn't, I think I've spent a good day being heart-broken, and perhaps I'll be a little bit more okay with it. I guess we'll just see. One thing is for sure, he is definitely my best friend, and when little things went wrong throughout the day, the only thing I wanted to do was call him and tell him "hey, it's been a pretty shitty day. God hates me so much that my boyfriend just broke up with me, AND my car is falling apart at the seams."